one of many uphills of life is approaching!!

so right now i feel like i've just hit the little valley of this downhill in the automotive transportation little world of bear stephens and im not approaching the uphill!!  a.k.a. my car's about to be fixed!!  LOL..

here's the latest on my car(for those who mechanically ignorant.. skip this part!  lol)  it turns out that those two pipes i ordered for $105 were not needed at all!  well actually one pipe was a little corroded inside so we put the new one on, but the 2nd part wasn't.  Why was the engine leaking then?  the water pump went out!  so i got the new pump, new radiator, and new pipe, and am now ready to piece everything back together!!  i hate not being able to drive anywhere..  lol it is saving me gas though!

I WANT TO SEE HARRY POTTER SO BAD!!  who wants to come with me? 

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is bear's xanga dying?

so lately i've been kind of low on comments.. it seems like my xanga hasn't really picked up much since i made it lol but that's ok.. i didn't make it for comments.  just for me to blog and express myself.

speaking of expressing.. let me express my new events in life!  lol well.. i thought the spirit may have had its last spark for a couple days this past week.. i was driving home the other nite when my temperature gauge (which is always in the middle!) went just a smidgin past the middle towards that big H, which in my car's case was short for Hell.. lol!   I thought to myself "ok bear.. as long as it stays there you can make the 2.1 miles to your house!!"  and 30 seconds later that gauge went past the H!!!!!  i said "OH NO!!!!" somehow it creeped back down some and i turned into my driveway when all of a sudden my car shut off.. i said "OH NOO!!!!!!!!" again, haha!  so i restart it and get to the garage to be greeted by a huge cloud of green steam/smoke and that smell of your car bleeding to death and dying... this was all at 2:45 A.M. too btw!!  so i stand there with the hood up just watching my car die..i almost burst into tears cause i LOVE my car so much.. it may not look like much but its one tough monkey!  well i decide to just let it cool for an hour or so and see what the damage is later.. so i come back out after an hour and refill it with water and start it.. everything seems good!! 

so i go to bed, wake up later for work, get ready, go outside and get in my car then stop.. i think to myself "i better check to make sure its still full before i leave.." so i pop the hood and open the radiator and to my dismay find no water again.. so i get curious and refill it.. then i see old faithful coming through under the intake manifold (a.k.a. the lungs of the car.. its what feeds the air to the engine lol)!!  so i stand back... and say to myself outloud "ok.. im not going to be driving this car for quite sometime now!"  well after talking to some mechanics, and by popular answer, i guessingly determined that the engine block was cracked.. which meant a whole new motor, a.k.a. buying a new car cause a new motor would probably be more than what the car's worth WITH the new motor in it.  so i made a trip to ORR Nissan in bossier, ready to sign for a new car when i said.. " NO!  my car is fixable.. the block is NOT cracked...this is one Spirit thats coming back to life!!!" and im glad i did bc it turns out the water pump just couldn't handle the heat and blew a seal and a tube needed to be replaced.. so im happy im spending around $95 instead of $13000 lol!

oh and in light of recent events lol.. i have been home a lot these past couple of days!  so i've already re-arranged my room, cleaned my room, bathroom and color coordinated all my clothes in my closet.  LOL!

On a personal note.. i've been letting all these little problems in life get the best of me.  like at work, ive been really moody and snappy!  e.g. someone i work with came up to me and said "hey whats wrong?  i can tell somethings bothering you.. and you've been acting all weird these past few days." and i replied back with "well, its just some personal things.. how about i just deal with it myself.." and walked off!  when i did that i really upset my friend and he didn't like it too much at all.. so now its kinda awkward between us and it hurts me so much cause we're like best friends even though i've only known him for about a month or so.  Normally i wouldnt let my car broke down or people criticizing me get under my skin like that.. but.. i just dont know.. now instead of worrying about those things, im now worried about all my friends i haven't talked to or took my stress out on.. yesterday i had to leave work 30 min. early cause i just had an emotional breakdown.. i guess i just dont deal well with that much stress all at once!  but anyway.. be praying for me and i LOVE all of you who read this.. esp. all of this  lol!!

kamikaze birds, down bank computers, and unknown walking creatures of the night..

I don't know where to begin!  I'll first start with these bird situations.  So I now have a history of bird encounters.  It all started with the birds at work laying nests right where we all walk, then they would start trying to attack you, so we would have to "relocate" their nests lol.  Now that has grown into having to dodge birds while you're walking on the sidewalk or driving in your own car down the road! 

The 2 more recent events happend on the 4th of july and the other night.  Lets start with the fourth.  So me, Ben, and Bruce go to watch the fireworks on the river.  We had to park on Texas and then walk the rest of the way since all of s'port/bossier/benton/stonewall/all surrounding areas were there!  As we're walking down Clyde Fant in between El Dorado casino and the riverfront.. we're greeted with somewhere around 15million birds flying very low overhead!!  A couple of them got a little too close for comfort for me!  As the night continues, me and bruce later learn that we have some aquintences at the river also and they got bombed by bird poo!  LOL!  i am SO glad that didn't happen to me!

Now the 2nd time.. this one scared the crap out of me!!  I was riding with bruce, we went to sonic and as we're pulling out onto kings.. bruce says something and i look over and see this big oval bird flying kamikaze style, straight for the drivers side window!!!!!!  At first i thought someone was throwing a rock or bomb at us, so i screamed like crazy and then bruce sees it and screams also, when at the last second, the bird makes an abrupt maneuver to the left and goes over the winshield!!  Needless to say I was scared to ride with the windows down for the rest of the night!

After this little mini-heart attack, we're heading back for my car when we are going down the road and come up to this red light.  What do I see in the road munching on some roach??  I HAVE NO IDEA!!!  it was like.. a cat with a dog's frame, no hair at all whatsoever.. but it had a face/snout like a deer!!!!  and was about the size of a very large dometic cat!  It also was not scared of the car cause it just walked off slowly.. it might have been deaf and blind?  but anyway, after that i was ready to get HOME!

And then today.. today was a disaster in a way!  i did get to see one of my best friends, that was the only good thing that happend!  I woke up this morning with the intention of seeing my friend, getting this part to fix my gas gauge, washing my car, and then making a deposit.. bank's computers were down and it took 38 minutes for them to tell me i couldnt make a deposit, it rained so there went anything to do with my car lol so today was basically a waste.  there's always tomorrow though, so i'll just do all that then

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yet again.. i have been robbed!

today was quite tiresome!  i got to bed at 3 last night and then unexpectedly had to be up at 6.. but i got a nap in after i got home so it balanced out.  when i got home... now that is where all the events of the day took place!  i got home and did my usual routine when i get off work, go talk to the rents about the day and anything else thats going on, take a shower, eat, get online/watch tv, then sleep for a bit.  well i slept a little longer than normal, until about 8:00.  i realized that i also missed lifegroups lol.

now.. after i wake up i have to make a wal mart run, so i head on out!  i decided that i wanted something from starbucks.. so i go to wal mart first then in my head im thinking "man i just wanna drink some coffee, chill out and read something!"  what better place for that then the good ol' barnes and noble!!!   so i go lol.  i stayed until they closed then was on my way home, windows down, singing to some cd i burned about a year ago that i just found and then i remembered something else i needed at wally world. so i go back.

heres the fun part.  i go in, get what i need, and head out to my car.. as im walking i can see something white dangling inside the door of my car sticking out of the window.  i get closer and its a wire hanger and my door was unlocked... someone broke into my car!  i check everything and only thing that's missing is some cd's (which i can live with because they were all scratched and non-playable that were stolen) and then i noticed my new bottle of Carbon cologne from Rue 21 was gone... of all things, my fav. cologne was taken!!!!  now the good part, and yes there is a good part, is that nothing was broken on the car, cds that were stolen i couldnt care less for lol, and my Carbon is only $10 a bottle.  oh and where was wal mart "security" during all this in their little white egg shaped cars???  ON THEIR BREAK!!  yup.. so there's nothing i could do really to try to catch who did it.

on the way home, im still a little heated just because i was simply robbed, but then i said to myself, "you know what, it could have been a lot worse!  just let it go!"  .. but then i started thinking again, LOL, to myself that if i can't even leave my car for less than 8 minutes in a public wal mart parking lot, under surveillance, than soemthing's not right.  i remember someone telling me how shreveport/bossier is on the Top 10 list of cities with the most crime.. i can now attest to this by experience!  lol

all in all though, on the way home i turned the radio back on, rolled the windows back down, and started singing again.  i think God let this happen for a reason, trying to tell me something.  whats He saying?  i have no clue right now lol!  but its all in His hands.. just like everything else that might come up in our life.  all we need to do is trust and believe in Him and he'll take care of the rest!

its been a while...

WOW.. its been almost a month since i've blogged!  lol

there has been a lot of things to update about, unfortunately though, i can't remember them all.

well yesterday i was at the Office of Motor Vehicles..... ALL DAY!  me and my mom went up there to switch the title and registration of my car over into my name.  we went up there to turn the plates in, but first we had to notarize the title and switch into my name, get insurance in my name on the car, then go back to the OMV to re-register the car.  doesn't sound like much when you read it, but it seriously took all day!  lol  but now the car is truly mine!

work's going great.. it gets a tad warm outside these days, but i'm making it!

im uber excited about this weekend!!!  the bcm is going on a hiking trip.. just the guys and we're hiking pretty much all day, setting up camp, chilling out for the night, then hiking down the next day!  i haven't been on a real hiking trip in.. so long!  so im happy.

well thats it for now.. more as things pop up!